On Rewriting

“You have to look at it as if you’re starting from scratch even if you’re not really doing that. I think when you get notes and stuff like that, and you’re trying to execute notes you have to find something inside the note that appeals to you and changes how you want to make the story to make it more interesting to you and look at it that way.” - Aaron Guzikowski.

A simple and great insight into the step of the process that I personally find the most torturous and generally confounding!

Reflections on Two Versions of an Old Pilot

Alternately titled, “Thirteen Ways of Looking at a KALEIDOSCOPE” (thanks, Wallace).

I recently met with a potential management rep and post-meeting he wanted to read some additional sample of mine. One of which is my old psychedelic noir pilot KALEIDOSCOPE. The real issue is that there was so many damn versions of the thing I can’t figure which one to send him. So, I narrowed it down to two options: the most cable-leaning, surreal, original version vs. the slightly more concrete, network-facing procedural.

Having just re-read (most of) both of them, I was sort of jarred. The original version, the one that I went fully on instinct was, well, rough. It had some of the best visual imaginations I’ve ever come up with, and the plot at its bones was interesting, but it really got clouded by something. Just that visceral experience of starting to get slowed down by the narrative writing style, I don’t know whether it’s because I just knew less about writing or because I was so caught up in my own show’s fantasy. But what’s even stranger is the second version that reads like a Eli Edelson attempt at a 2000s procedural. It doesn’t really sound like me, but it does read better, somehow. It’s a bit of a dilemma, but always use the stronger sample - even if its less representative of me as a whole, it’s still a display of ability. It’s heartening to me, on some level, that no matter the self-branding issues or the output of new ideas, as long as you keep writing you do inherently get better - even if it’s a winding path that produces stories you’re not necessarily in love with. To trudge is to succeed, apparently!

P.G. Wodehouse - continued thoughts

I’m now on to reading my second P.G. Wodehouse novel, The Inimitable Jeeves, though some refer to it as a semi-novel collection of stories. The only issue is that I have no idea where this book stands in the collection of things, or what volume the previous one I read is — Stiff Upper Lip, Jeeves! Though I have to say, it really doesn’t matter in the slightest. These stories (and novels, overall) just pop from thought to though, hilarious predicament to hilarious predicament. And furthermore, some Wodehouse achieves this sense of deep interior narrative into the anti-hero (Bertie)’s totally vacuous and superficial and hilarious perspective. The man is more or less a dolt, though hilariously witty in his doltishness. The reader can appreciate his daft wit while also appreciating his unreliable and unaware narration. It’s really a shock to read at first, how fast you can plow through his experiences while savoring the little moments of insight (or lackthereof). I feel there is a deeper meaning and resonance to Betram Wooster, though I’m not sure what it is yet. Something along the lines of a Taoist ideal, maybe? Nothing changes the man, though he overreacts to obstacles he also understands the way of the world and how little control he has over it. The least he can do is enjoy himself and make observations (and make fun) of it as he’s carried along by the strange currents of the society he finds himself in — all the while saved time and time again by the uber-valet Jeeves.

Podcast Rec

In preparing for an interview to be a potential freelancer writer for a podcast production company, I’ve dove in to that crazy wide field of content a bit deeper for context and research. Out of all the podcasts I listened to, the one that struck me the most was actually the one that had nothing to do with the genres of the potential hiring company. It was The Caliphate by the NYT. Such intricate and detailed reported on the rise and recruitment tactics of ISIS, but also an incredibly good story told through the interviews of a recruit and recruiter. It grounds you in a world that otherwise would be impossible for the average Westerner to access via their imagination. I think for that reason, and the humanity of the interviewees and story tellers, I was totally hooked.

Age of the Retired Badass

I recently wrote another video essay, hopefully it will be completed and released around Thanksgiving. About how we’ve come to live in the time of elderly action flicks… here’s the intro:

“Sniper fire incoming through the windows. A motorcycle chase across a roof. Your daughter has just been kidnapped! Be honest, when you imagine the badass to save the day – who comes to mind? Are they old enough to get a senior discount?

Willis. Stallone. Schwarzenegger. These guys practically invented the modern-day action film. And now? They seem to be the only ones still in it – alongside latecomers in their age bracket like Denzel Washington, Samuel Jackson, and the incomparable “I-will-find-you-and-I-will-kill-you” Liam Neeson – with dad-aged super-spies like Tom Cruise & Daniel Craig fast on their heels.

We’ve come to live in the Age of the Retired Badass. How did we get here? And what happened to all the young bucks? Let’s find out who drew first blood. "

Meandering Thought: Book Organization

I’m in the midst of re-organizing my entire book collection and I severely underestimated how much of a task this would be… I’m not sure how many I own at this point, but the problem is no longer storage, finally (we got two huge new bookcases to add to the original tall one). The problem is organization. What I realized during this multi-day, still-ongoing process is that it’s really damn tough to decide what defines a book in terms of genre. I realized this because I’m trying to divide them by genre (and then alphabetical by author within each section) but it’s difficult to assert what most defines a book to me. I’m not even into the fiction (by short story vs. novel section, or just all fiction together? Poetry, screenplays, plays, etc.) but in the non-fiction there are more academic yet creative books, or essay collections, there’s memoirs that aren’t really memoirs but thought experiments. There’s travel books, wine books, cooking books, writing how-to books, the list goes on and on and it’s gotten to the point where I think I’ll have to start with a low bar for myself and evolve the organization as I evolve alongside it, understanding myself and what the books mean to me as I go. Sounds boring, because it is, but I can tell it’s an important thought exercise for me to always do.

(this isn’t even all of them, and there’s another black Ikea bookcase to the left off screen)


The Smells of Biking

Well, I’ve finally started using my bicycle to full effect. It certainly prevents the same sort of meandering thought that accompanies walking. At least, it does in Los Angeles where there are almost no bike lanes and the drivers seem furious at your existence - if they’re even aware of it, that is. There’s more of a hyper-awareness of your surroundings. And biking home yesterday evening, from the AMC Century City at around 10PM (about a 20 minute bike ride) I noticed that there were only a few smells I kept running into across west LA:

  • a very aromatic sort of mushroom/fungus smells, like forest mushrooms yet I didn’t see any and have no idea what really could produce that in Los Angeles

  • marijuana, of all sorts of variety from the buttery smelling to the exceedingly skunky

  • laundry, just lots of fresh laundry smell

  • maybe at times, with a strong breeze, a bit of ocean air (though probably that was wishful thinking)

Either way, it’s interesting how the type and speed of movement affects the type of thought. The faster you move the less you think, but perhaps the more you notice.